AUTHOR: Hollie Go Lightly
TITLE: Slow Burn
DATE: 6/12/2005 06:37:00 PM
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Patrick got here about eight o'clock, sun burnt and tired. Things went well in the Hamptions. It ended up being a "employee only" excursion that included a surpise staff meeting over steaks. Nobody brought spouses or girlfriends and only 3 of them actually stayed the night. Lots of food, lots of booze and way too much sun. We were going to head to dinner, but we were both too fatigued from the heat and hung over from the night before. (I had far too many beers with my softball team and almost collapsed at one point during the game.) Patrick and I ended up laying on my bed eating pizza and watching "Entourage."
For those of you who don't watch the show here's a quick re-cap:
Eric and his girlfriend had been separated for three months while he was in NYC filming a movie and she was in LA at school. On his return home, he headed straight to her place hoping for welcome home sex. No deal. His girlfriend had her period. "Can I at least get a blow job" he asked. Not happening. They agree to make a "sex date" for the following Saturday. She calls last minute and says she has food poisoning. Eric tells his friends what happened, they call bullshit and take him out to get his mind off things. Eric is sensing that his girlfriend is blowing him off. Eric sleeps with model and feels guilty for it. He goes to his girlfriend's place the next day to confess, but they start fooling around. Rather than both of them just shutting the hell up, Eric starts saying how he thought they'd never sleep together again because he thought the universe was "working against them." Her getting her period, not being able to fly to NYC to see him, her food poisoning. "Are you accusing me of something?" she asks all huffy. Eric says no. She questions whether or not he truly was faithful to her while in NYC. He adamantly says he was and backed it up by reminding her of how they agreed that they would be exclusive while he was away. She says she never agreed to that. The girlfriend then cops to sleeping with someone while he was away, he feels like a fool for having stayed faithful for three months and for beating himself up over screwing someone else the night before. She didn't cheat on him once, but twice. She was lying about the food poisoning. She begs him to stay using the "we can work it out, don't leave angry" line. Eric turns and snots back, "I'm not angry. As a matter of fact I came over her to confess to you that I fucked a Perfect Ten model last night. And this morning. Buh bye."
And...scene.
I said outloud that I thought he was an idiot for wanting to confess his infidelity. Okay, probably should have used my "inside voice" for that but...whatever.
"Dumb move on his part. Glad she confessed first though." Patrick asked.
"Right? He didn't plan on seeing the girl he slept with again, why tell her? Not to mention, his gut was telling him all along that she wasn't completely sure about where they stood. Why open that can of worms?"
"Exactly. No need to be that honest. He didn't care about the girl he fucked, he was just pissed that she blew him off."
"Of course. He still should have kept it to himself though. He was in the clear. He just told her about screwing around to hurt her and to prove he was right. Should have kept that to himself."
"Would you?" he asked. Wait, when did this become about us? Or me, to be exact.
"Would I keep something like that to myself? Well, probably. I mean, I guess. What if they got back together? Then she wouldn't trust him. Then that things would always be hanging over their head."
"But who do you think was more wrong? Him, because he did it out of feeling hurt. Or her?"
"She was. She didn't know they were exclusive? That's bullshit. She knew. She was just being selfish."
"So cheating out of feeling hurt isn't as bad as doing it out of selfishness. It's more easily forgiven?" he asked. Why did I feel like my words might be used against me at some point?
"No, just easier to understand. The forgiving part would still be difficult. Especially for me. Why...something I should know?"
"Of course not! I'm just asking, is all." He lightly slapped my thigh and stuck his tongue out at me then went back to watching TV.
Here's the thing...if I asked him what was behind those statements, and he had strayed, would I have gotten the truth? Probably not.
Did I think he was feeling me out to see how I'd react if he did, in fact, ever cheat on me? Yeah. Totally.
Do I think he wanted to gauge whether I'd stepped out on him? No.
Am I worried that he cheated? My radar went off a bit, but I think that if he had strayed he wouldn't have pushed the issue and attracted attention to himself.
Your thoughts?
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